I want to laugh a lot everyday. I want to dance every morning while making my breakfast. I want to feel that I am useful and that my life has a purpose. I want to swim in the ocean and feel the sun kiss lightly on my cheeks many times a day. I want to be me and create my own happiness.
I feel stuck. I am trying to be greatful, I do. For having a job, a place to sleep and a wonderful family and good friends around me. And I am grateful for that. And I am aslo proud about what I have been able to do the last couple of years . I have saved my own money and travelled to different places around the world. I have been loneley sometimes, but other times happy and alone. Most of the times I’ve been so lucky to have shared moments with people who have filled my heart with joy and love.
Now that I am back home, I realize – There is something missing. Have you ever felt it this way before? I have. Actually several times the last couple of years. I am trying over and over again to make myself fit into this “normal” life which I have grown up with and which I used to love. I am trying to convince myself that it could be nice and that this could be good after all. But would it? I don’t think so anymore.
Norway, you guys. I love Norway in so, so many ways, and there is so much to love about it! But still, I am tired of trying to fit in here, when I don’t really feel happy and excited about the life I have here. I guess I need to stop trying. I need to stop pretending I want what other people want. I should go for my own happiness and all the magic that comes along with that.
I should go for this feeling